Begin here.

My life is good in the personal sense, not in the academic. I should not be here; Philosophy at university is not what I should be doing with my life. I knew this a while back, but was quite prepared to piss away the years, pass or fail, simply because I hadn't a clue what else to do.

So, ask advice from Student Services on Monday. Should I stay in education? Work for real? If I stay in education, study what? Many things interest me, but not enough to actually write essays, read books, revise for exams... Get a real job? As what? Not a summer job; work for rest of life. So, as what?

Not going to find answers now, on Monday, or in the near future. Don't expect to. But, at least begin to look... Haven't so much as thought about this in years. Haven't thought about what I want to do with my life, hoped it would take care of itself. It shall not.

Personal life's good though; in love with a girl who loves me back. She is happy with her life; I want to be with mine.

The Donnie Darko soundtrack, by Michael Andrews, is beautiful.

I go drink now.